What will my bottom be this time

I was in OA for years.  I moved back to my home town a year ago to be closer to my son.  I have been here working and hiding in my house with my food.  I feel like I am eating myself to death.  I have a very high stress job and not many people here I really trust.  I have known for months that the problem is getting worse and I need to deal with it but I just can’t seem to find a start.  I am to the point now that I can’t stand more then 45 minutes without getting a horrible pain in my back.

I have always used food for comfort but it is getting way out of hand.  I never talk to anyone I used to spend 1800 a month on the phone.  I used to see my friends all the time and always thought that people who like to be alone were wierd.  It seems so strange to me to be in this place.   I know I don’t like this city but I never thought this would have happened.  I would love to know when I will stop this insanity.  I am not back sliding in the other areas in my life.  I am even going back to school so that I can get a different job.

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Hello world!

Hi there.  This is my first blog but I have been looking for a place to speak my mind and getting all the junk off my chest.  I am 33 and have lived alot for my age.  There have been alot of ups and downs in my life.  I have spent the last three years working thru my issues(most of them anyway).  Food is the big issue eating me a live right now.  I have a job that I work hard to get but it is so stressful. I am not complaining with so many people not able to get a job.  So instead I am going to college to turn the career I have worked 10 years on into something else it is time for a change.